A visit with Miss Elly

God is good in every way. I was able to see my Elly yesterday and boy did I need that in such a desperate way. When I realized that the dye study was not done yet, I asked my husband if he could watch the kids and get off work early. I think he could hear the desperation in my voice because without hesitation he agreed whole heartily. No sooner had he gotten home when I was in the car and on my way to see my Elly Bella. I know that he wanted to see her as well but he selflessly let me go. My Joe is like my rock and my strength. I know I can get through anything with him at my side. I truly thank God for giving me such a good man to be with me. I have often thought about how much God loves me through my husband.

So, there I was on the road counting down the minutes to see my Bella. I could not get there soon enough. Finally, I entered the NICU and went to the side of the room where my little Bella was. She looked amazing! How could she be so much more adorable in just 1 day? Honestly, she looked bigger and fatter. I was sure she had gained weight. In just one day of not seeing her, I was able to see such a difference in her. It was a difference for the better but how amazing to see so much growth in just one day. Of course, my camera still has no batteries but I will fix that today.

I had to wait a little bit to hold her because she was still getting another x-ray but finally I was able to hold my little girl. Its amazing the bond between mother and child. It is beyond the boundaries of time and space, distance and circumstances. As soon as I held my angel, she felt my heart beat and snuggled into a deep slumber. She held me with her arm and rested her soft little head upon my chest. She felt safe and secure just as she had once felt deep in my womb. Once again we were with each other in symbiotic harmony. We were two in one again and our hearts beat as one. This is why Kangaroo Care decreases the mortality rate. The love we shared was wordless only our souls could feel and sense it and no words were necessary.

I needed to feel and be with her in this way yesterday. The doctor's phone call today was less fearful to me after my time with her yesterday. I saw how healthy and alive she looked. The possibility of all that she will endure was somehow softened by the fact that my Bella looked to be filled with inner strength and a healthy little body. I know that she will be able to handle what comes her way. She is filled with love, and prayers. She is so loved and that is giving her life. The love that is shown to her by so many people truly does reach her. Love also has no boundaries. The angels of God take the love and prayers from so many right to her. She is surrounded and protected by LOVE. God is Love and so many of you are his messengers and for this, I will be forever grateful.

Now, I await the next move of this roller coaster ride. For now, I am at peace. I hold fast to your prayers and support and Trust in God. Today is a good day and I will rest in Jesus. Friday, I will see my angel once more.

Thank you with all my heart for those of you have sent me contributions to see Elly, each time my heart aches, your generosity will enable me to see my angel. Only God who can know the depths of my gratitude can reward your love. I will continue to pray for you.

Thank you with all my heart for all who are praying for her. Your prayers are keeping my Bella alive and healthy. I will be forever in your debt.

God Bless,
Gina